I love singing. I can’t sing, but I love doing it. The inspiration strikes and I’ll belt a tune. Sometimes it’s a real song, sometimes it’s I’ll just make up a show tune. I’m not into musicals, but I’ll hit sing in that style. I’ve been doing this for as long as I can remember. So why doesn’t it feel that way,
Now I always know there’s a problem when I start randomly breaking out in song. Like sometimes I just break out and start singing some random song for no reason. This is never a good thing. This generally is a sign that the darkness has or will soon arrive. Generally it’s kind of a manic overreaction to fight off a downswing.
This is something I’ve started noticing lately about myself. For a while I thought my random singing was just an odd quirk of my personality, but lately it’s felt like something deeper. Sometimes the song fits my mood and other times it’s just something totally random. Also I find that I just get fixated on one part of the song and just keep repeating it. Singing is supposed to be fun dammit!
Of course while it’s all I’ve said is true, I also burst out singing when the light is shining. When I’m giddy I sing. When something unexpectedly pleases me, I gotta hit them high notes. I guess my, I’ll be generous and call it singing, is just connected to my feelings. When I’m feeling too high or too low it just triggers a musical response from deep down in my soul. Sometimes I hear a word or phrase and it just triggers a song. That’s when I jam.
I’m not really sure what to do about this. I’m not a big music guy in general. I don’t just sit down and vibe to songs. I don’t have a favorite band or a favorite singer. To me music is just the background to life. It’s something that adds flavor to movies and TV. I’ll put on some music when I want to sit down and read a book. Maybe that’s why singing is tied to my mood. Because it only exists as mood to me, it makes for a great radar of my emotional state. Also l haven’t been able to listen to Adele lately. She’s just too full of pathos.
I also like to break into dance sometimes when I’m walking, but I consider that to be adding panache to a daily task, more than anything else. Also I sing in the shower, but that’s just human. Anyway this took an odd turn, but we all have our quirks. Also, I really do like my random singing. There’s probably something important I should be getting from that. Alas I’ll never know, for now. That didn’t make any sense. I’m rambling now. That’s it, that’s all.